After the Perfect Storm

Well, I have finally dug my way out of the dust storm. As much as I wanted to go help the firestorm victims I realized I had my own dilemma to overcome. My prayers are unfortunately all I can offer at this moment. My need for employment, so that we can pay our bills also had to top my list. The Month and a half i spent in the south east after Katrina did teach me many things. I learned how good it feels to help others but also not to exceed what i can afford to give. Not only did i give away our retirement but my health suffered as i came home only because i became to sick to work any more...every moment of the day was spent with a cough drop in my mouth I was around many sick and coughing people. One evening as we dished out the dinner to 1500 people I thought i was having a heart attack (dummy me i just traded places in the line to a slowing moving give them a piece of fruit section) it turned out that I had pneumonia, which cause the severe chest pains. It was another month of recovery health wise and monetarily i have yet to recover...But i regret very little 3 months of work gone 30k in saving money gone...was it worth it. YES! Quite honestly that experience aided to my decision to try and do what I love. Even if i am no longer making 125k a year, even if I do not have savings or even health insurance, even if we struggle to the pay the bills, it was truly one of the most satisfying times of my life and i am happier now than i have been in years. Not missing the high stressed fast pace career i was in I have been Taken back to a simpler time: the struggling years of my youth and making the best of the little things. Sure i miss money the things it would bring...but i also know the value of a dollar now, before i valued it as a penny i could drop and not chase it in the wind. Times for me have changed. Appreciation for life has new meaning. I have seen poor... and even if i wind up poor white trash living in a trailer...I will be the best poor white trash i can be because Life is Good! (no matter what)